Happy Easter!

"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." 2 Corinthians 4:16-18

Well today I get to watch our Easter service from the comfort of my own home due to the fact that my WBC counts are down.  I have been wearing a mask in public and pretty much been quarantined to my house since Thursday.  You would think that my house would be spotless at this point...NOPE, I have had zero energy.

I have at this point received four 650mcg doses of Neupogen.  This shot takes a few hours to kick in, and yes I do mean KICK.  I will all of the sudden start getting this killer headache, muscle fatigue and soreness and then the almost  an overwhelming fatigue sets in.  It is very strange how you feel when your bone marrow is working so hard at producing.

None the less I will not lose heart!  I actually was reading my friend Angela's blog about her treatments and she used this verse during one of her hard weeks and I really thought it was fitting.  It is easy for us in times of hardship to blame God, but what we sometimes forget is our focus really matters in life.  If I focus on how God gives me strength each and every day to live a full life for him then the hard times, I realize, are not that hard.  However, if my focus is on how cancer has ruined my life and made me miserable since Nov 1, which it has not, then I would most likely start to get depressed.

I have been asked several times why the name of my blog is, "My secret place," and I am not sure that I have addressed that on my blog.  My secret place is the place where I find my peace and joy in everyday life.  It is the spot in my heart that God works in me.  When I started this blog I knew that I wanted it to be public, and this is a very personal time in my life, but I truly feel that God wants us all to live OUT our lives for him and show others how and why we are they way we are. So I decided to take this blog and use it to show others that in My secret place is where I am renewed day by day.

I pray that you all have a blessed Easter and the week to come!